4 February 2018
9 AM
After being kind of depressed and vegetative yesterday, I feel like I have some energy and motivation today. I’m going to take down my Christmas tree that has become a shadowy reminder of how little I accomplish when I’m depressed, making the depression worse of course. Fingers crossed.
1 PM
I’ve taken a break to eat an ice cream sandwich. I put on Netflix and have been binging on the show “Schitt’s Creek” with Eugene Levy and his son and daughter, Daniel and Sarah Levy. It’s turned out to be a very clever show. I’ve been wrapping my ornaments in tissue paper and putting them away. The process is arduous, but I was raised in a family of Christmas ornament collectors and this is all I know. I’m hoping when I put them up again I’ll take photos (for insurance purposes) which I should have done years ago.
3 PM
Naturally with all the stories on the Super Bowl today, I saw that even Mike Ditka has now said that the risks of pro football outweigh the benefits. Although I don’t follow pro football, my dad was a football coach and gave me a love of the game (he was also not into pro football). For anyone that loves the game Coach Ditka’s comments might seem shocking, but I have a lot of respect for that. It comes from not only medical evidence, but seeing first hand how players are faring down the line and the impact on them and their families. I don’t want the game to go away, but if there is a way to make it safer that is important. There is still so much to learn about the brain.
5:30 PM
I’m eating some frozen pierogis I baked, which means I likely won’t want to make burgers like I originally planned. Continuing the long task of getting Christmas tree stuff away. Starting to feel like I’m getting too old for this.
9:30 PM
Well that head injury thing turned out to be pretty relevant. I’m rooting for the Eagles but I sure hope Cooks is okay. The Christmas tree is down!! Everything is put away!! I feel like I’ve conquered depression and lethargy!! Hopefully this won’t be the last time I have motivation or energy in the next two weeks.
11 PM
I talked to my mom who’s been sick, and she’s getting worse. She thinks she has strep and is going to the doctor for a second time tomorrow. She worried about how much money she’s spent on medicine already (she is on a very low fixed income). However she is talking more about self care, and it’s huge that she’s already been to the doctor once during this illness. Listening to her hoarse voice, her long pauses to breathe is worrying with such a bad flu season.